Perhaps (A Woman’s Refrain): For Kelly Oxford

  Susanna and the Elders by Artemisia     Gentileschi

Susanna and the Elders by Artemisia Gentileschi

TRIGGER WARNING: SEXUAL ASSAULT

 

Perhaps it was the time I was walking along Washington Square Park

A man came behind me and slapped my ass

While his friends laughed.

Embarrassed, I just walked faster.

 

Or perhaps it was the time I was on the subway

A man came and sat in front of me

His hand stroking his cock behind a brown suitcase.

I moved to another car. He followed me. I yelled at him, but felt like a bitch.

 

Or perhaps it was the other time I was on the subway

A man came and pressed his cock between the cheeks of my ass

No one could tell anything was wrong because of the crowds.

Scared, I held my breath praying for my stop to come.

 

Or perhaps it was the time I was on my way home

A man came asking me for some money.

Being nice (isn’t that always our way, ladies) I gave him twenty dollars.

He grabbed me and tried to kiss me on my mouth.

 

Or perhaps it was the time I went to Barcelona

A man came offering to give me a tour of the park

Instead he took me to a remote area and rubbed himself against my ass.

He came. And laughed. I felt stupid for being so gullible.

 

Or perhaps it was the time I went on that date

A man came and pushed me to the ground—ripping my panties in two

Demanding oral sex because he bought me dinner.

Feeling guilty, I jerked him off as fast I could. He tried to follow me home.

 

Or perhaps it was the time when I was a girl learning to navigate my sex

A man came and told me to keep my legs together if I wanted into God’s Kingdom

He spoke, licking his lips as he hungrily eyed my tits and ass.

Confused, I felt like I was a sinner…but I liked the attention.

 

Or perhaps it was the time …

A man came …

Grabbed me by the pussy …

My fault …

 

Or perhaps …

Man …

Licked …

Secret …

 

Perhaps …

Perhaps …

Perhaps …